Yes, it has been a while since I have made a post. Sorry about that. Many, many things have been going on. A lot of them personal, and things I'm not quite comfortable going into detail about here on a public blog.
However, I thought I would check in and let you know how I've been holding up.
As of yesterday, approximately 12 weeks out from surgery, the scale said I was 191 lbs. Since I started my journey of weight loss surgery on my pre-op diet, and starting off at a weight of roughly 244 lbs. I have officially lost 53 lbs. People are starting to notice the weight loss, and the other night my mother even said I was getting "tiny." I recently got a new driver's license and compared pictures between my old and new, and you can definitely tell a difference in my face. I have also lost inches off my body and my clothes are starting to get baggy.
For me though, I still feel as big as I was when I went in for surgery. This is a personal struggle that I'll have to work through. Sometimes when I look in the mirror, its still the same fat person looking back at me. I still have about 70 lbs to lose, and I'm sure as time continues on, I will lose that, but the bigger issue for me, is working through this distorted self image I have of myself in my head.
I have also had some problems along the way as well. If I drink lukewarm water too fast, I will vomit. I have problems on and off with different foods, such as cheese and milk, where one day it will sit well in my stomach, and then the next day it won't. I have "cheated" a bit and had some foods like chips and small amounts of soda, that I know I shouldn't eat. Overall though, I have kept to my diet pretty well. I do need to kick up my exercise, and actually keep to a regular schedule of exercise. It's just really hard to do when you don't have a buddy to do it with. I know that isn't a good enough excuse, but it explains a bit.
Overall, I think the surgery is working well for me, but I do still have some concerns about long term success. I knew when I had this surgery that there were really no long term studies done, because Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy hadn't been done long enough as a standalone procedure to have this kind of data available. It is because of this, that I have been considering a revision to either the Duodenal Switch or Roux-en-Y. We'll see about this, as I haven't quite decided which I would do, let alone if I will do it.
